New Years Eve

It is New Year's Eve 2020...

I woke up ready and focused on the day. In my head, the first thing to start was cleaning up at 6am this morning. Wash the dishes, sweep and mop the floor, clean the bathrooms, declutter my work desk, dust the rooms, and vacuum...

I said my prayers the whole time I cleaned up reminding myself just how intentional I need to be about talking things through with God. 

As I cleaned out my drawers to my desk so many things started to play over in my mind...The things I've accomplished, the tears I've cried years before around this time, the happiness that I feel to still be here in my right mind. I feel amazing! In my own home, my bills are all paid for the year, credit is sneaking into the 700's which I've never seen in my life, my business is growing, my relationship with God is becoming concrete, and my child is healthy and strong. 

There is nothing more that I could possibly ask for...Except for a husband, which God has already aligned just like everything else so it's not a worry. All in all 2020 has proved itself to be just what it was meant to prove...Hindsight! 

I've been working on myself, creating schedules, and making sure my boundaries are in place and that my self-accountability is sharpened beyond measure. 2021 will be everything I need it to be and everything God has ordained it to be. Im happy, I'm excited, and I'm ready...

Let's do this 2021!

Surrender and Faith

 

I blew out my candles and felt deeply disconnected but then I spoke a word... Not Without My Ancestors.

I believed again that God was first in my life. I accepted him back and needed to release so much that I hid in the back. I had to search for myself and heal! 

God made 2020 look so cloudy to so many people yet, he made things in 2020 vision for me. He said to work but also believe in him. I have been tremendously blessed in 2020. A few bumps and bruises but I've been pushing myself. It is so funny how we sit and imagine life for ourselves and then we are forced to surrender to what our callings are. I was told to use my platform for his glory. 

So here I am, both Natosha and A Mouthful, giving honor to The Most High for everything he has done in my life, everything he is doing in life, and everything he has already placed his hands on for me. I am honored to be a servant leader. I've tried time and time again to run away from my passion but I am faced with the reality of "Me" every single time I try to run. 

It is accepting that I am a writer, I am a great woman, and a mother. I am believing and working for a cause that is much bigger than what I've ever imagined. I write and express what is meant to be said to those who may not be brave enough to keep going after life told you to give up...DON'T YOU EVER GIVE UP! 

The hardest battles are given to the strongest soldiers. If you have been given a task here on Earth it is only right that you accept it, preferably now so that life can flourish for you. I pray that every single word I share with anyone reading any of my posts the best of what God has for you. I am surrendering and having faith that I am on the right path!

PANIC

*Loud scream* PANIC!!!

Bound to a situation that if I do not scream I am not heard yet I'm humbled. 

Easy and every time God has came through at the nick of time so why worry now. Living in a world when emotions are high and the tension gets thicker. Throughout the wave ride there are times when my hands are high up in the air and then the drop comes that makes me grit my teeth. The thoughts of wondering what to do next. Trying not to panic!

In a world when life has been made different from all angles, just upside down. Where do you pull your strength from? When I panic I tend to create more. I tend to push just a little harder. There is no way the ride that I've ridden for this long can burn and crash. 

Without a doubt in my mind I pull deep from within and grind it out...ALWAYS! 

"If you want to make God laugh, just tell him your plans". 

I've always wondered what that meant until now. If all you had was to hold on to him and what his word says. I try to avoid speaking about my religion or spirituality but whomever it is that is sitting high and looking low be looking out for your girl. 

Who am I to give up on what God gave to me! The panic is accepting every single piece of me that God has created. The loud scream, the anxious panic begins to melt away. I'm leaning on what I know to be true and trying not to PANIC!

Welcome

 

My first night back to doing what I completely love...writing! And the first thing I want to talk about is gratitude and being thankful! 

I'm so grateful for the opportunity and platform to get back to it. I can feel that this will be an amazing journey for me this go round. I've figured a few things out and even unfigured (I made that up) some things out. 

Per the usual, I'll be dropping nothing but the raw and uncut feelings, emotions, and passions of A Mouthful. I'm actually so excited that, whoever you are, took the time to stop by and check things out. Bare with me as I lay it all out and you take this walk with me as I continue to learn more. Shout out to my family, my supporters, and to The Most High! I am tremendously blessed and I will continue to keep it that way. 

Come in, feel the good vibes, and sho
w ALL the love.

-A Mouthful