I'm Grateful

 What a privilege it is to wake up each and every day stayed in my right mind…

What a miracle it is for me to realize the actualization of me making it to my bed each and every night…

…A roof, a refrigerator full of food of many choices, a pantry with some of our favorite snacks, a/c blowing good air, a few dollars in my bank account, and the breathe still left in our lungs

Thankful for the grace and for the mercy that is held up for me somewhere protecting me from all the things that I could not see

I am amazed at where life is headed even though I can’t seem to see past the smoke…

Knowing that it’s only there because some shit is popping off

And when shit is letting loose like that I can either crash and burn or learn to adjust my breathing and walk through it

…Not letting the fear capture me and definitely not holding any prisoners who have chosen to abandon ship and jump head first into the water knowing that they can’t really swim, choosing to drown instead

I’m thankful nonetheless for all the lessons and all the blessings that I have been led to and even the ones that may have gotten away

I'm thankful nonetheless to have been in the presence of what could have possibly been but just couldn’t seem to make due with it

The tears have dried up and the only thing I’ve been thinking about this week is staying in peace

Staying in a place that is safe for me and that could possibly bring me more clarity and understanding 

Dreams becoming stronger showed me exactly how things are to happen so I brace myself ready for the turbulence that was shown to me. I appreciate the warnings more so now, than ever 

The chaos, I don’t need

So I’m opting for the love and the peace that I’ve found tucked deep down inside of me and I’m sticking with that

I’m appreciating every single move I’ve made forward and grateful for the lessons I’ve learned taking steps back

I am allowing life to flow as it needs to and I’m trying not to be in control but instead cherish the moments that we’ll never get back

What a privilege it has been to feel, see, and apply the new me that has been birthed, and what an honor it has been not so much enjoying the process but pushing through it even when I didn’t have the guts to see it through

I’m grateful 🙌🏽