It's time to wake up.
I've been sleeping on what God wants to have for me. All this time thinking that what I wanted was much better for me. On this roller coaster. I'm up one second, and then I'm down the next.
Today marks 40 days that I've set out to be abstinent and let me tell you that I've never felt more focused, relaxed, and unbothered in my life. Not only have I abstained from sex but I've given myself some grace and have shown gratitude for where I am in life.
It really has me questioning whether I'll go back to dating or not. All I know is I'm happy and I feel myself falling into the place where God has been wanting me to be over the years. He has been wanting me to focus only on him...to fully surrender and I'm glad I've taken this opportunity to do exactly what he has asked of me.
Self-control has become a discipline for me and I'm actually glad that my space and my energy have not been invaded these days. I've allowed it once and immediately I recognized the direction that it was taking me in. So my prayer is for God to continue guiding me and seeing me through and that he continues to give me the strength to surrender and do his will because what he has for me is way bigger than I could ever imagine. I'm ready and I'm wide open for whatever it is.
More prayer, more resting in him, less worries, and less of me! It's time to wake up 👐
