PANIC

*Loud scream* PANIC!!!

Bound to a situation that if I do not scream I am not heard yet I'm humbled. 

Easy and every time God has came through at the nick of time so why worry now. Living in a world when emotions are high and the tension gets thicker. Throughout the wave ride there are times when my hands are high up in the air and then the drop comes that makes me grit my teeth. The thoughts of wondering what to do next. Trying not to panic!

In a world when life has been made different from all angles, just upside down. Where do you pull your strength from? When I panic I tend to create more. I tend to push just a little harder. There is no way the ride that I've ridden for this long can burn and crash. 

Without a doubt in my mind I pull deep from within and grind it out...ALWAYS! 

"If you want to make God laugh, just tell him your plans". 

I've always wondered what that meant until now. If all you had was to hold on to him and what his word says. I try to avoid speaking about my religion or spirituality but whomever it is that is sitting high and looking low be looking out for your girl. 

Who am I to give up on what God gave to me! The panic is accepting every single piece of me that God has created. The loud scream, the anxious panic begins to melt away. I'm leaning on what I know to be true and trying not to PANIC!